The Quiet Ones

We're often called 'tough eggs to crack'. Sometimes you turn around with that feeling that you're being watched and, even though we only locked eyes when you turned, the intensity and thoughtfulness might have seemed creepy or invasive. We don't talk much, not because we have nothing to say, but because there's so fucking much to say. Asking us to talk is likely to be met with more silence or some disjointed thought. 

We're not exactly waiting for a prompt, permission to speak. We're not always riddled with anxiety unless we're getting condescending, patronizing or hostile vibes. We get called amenable or down to earth. We're quick to judge but aren't strictly judgemental. We're mistaken as perceivers because we're not aggressive but we often arrive at decisions fast though readjust them just as quickly. We can think you seem like a stuck-up bitch then like you by the end of the night. We seem indecisive at times but it's often because we don't have enough information to make a decision.

Quiet Ones tend to live in the grey. Nothing is wholly good or evil, though we certainly choose sides in the darkest and lightest spots. We're not colorblind, figuratively speaking, Sometimes we're even hypersensitive and it's not just an emotional extremity. Sometimes we hear, see, smell, taste and otherwise sense too well or not at all. We're present but we're somewhere else. We seem like impossible multitaskers but we're more environmental ruminants, able to engage or ignore at random.

We want you to see what we're passionate about but don't press it. When you give us a chance, you might see our potential. We aren't actually selling you anything, we're investing in our dreams. (Semantics. Sorry, not sorry.) We can never hear enough how much you admire our work.

Okay, this isn't some sort of pronoun coming-out, but clearly I fit the bill and many other people mistaken for being quiet do as well. Most people don't actually have a crippling impairment but are instead just looking for an authentic entrance. We're not the ''how bout those Knicks?" people but we're the "I never knew a red wine could be so sweet!" sort. Most quiet people aren't looking for the quick and easy joke, but the hidden gems. We want to see you gazing at the moon and bring up the Chinese moon landing, the first successful attempt... And they're growing cotton up there! If you don't make a face and call us weird, the next question would be whether the government will actually honor all that real estate on the moon that NASA was selling or if there will be land disputes once terraforming happens? And no, it's not always that staggeringly nerdy; sometimes we see carrots on the party platter and remember reading that carrots were originally purple. Okay, that's nerdy too. I'm bad at this...

Point being, my kind aren't apt to leave you feeling our work is predictable. We make the most attentive friends. We're self entertaining and don't tend towards neediness.

Now I definitely sound like I'm selling something. Friends don't let friends blog on no sleep.