I blogged a post clearly stating I was 'on hiatus' but I'm clearly a liar. The frequency is still high, but it also comes with the intention of it intact.
I'm not procrastinating on my main project.
When I posted that, it was because the sheer amount of time I spent on scheduling blogs, times I was realizing I had bowed out of writing, had exhausted myself to goals I wanted to place as a priority.
However, I created a sort of unconscious reward system. Now that I delegate writing to the first thing I do, I've been putting quality hours towards where I want them, using blogging as a way to take a break, not the first priority. Sometimes you just have to trick yourself into a new order.
And of course, I'm enjoying the hell out of writing my book. I'm playing with some fun arcs, my favorite mix of seriousness, adventure and humor. Although it gets more complex, keeping track of the logic as I go, I also develop a deeper kinship with the characters and events along the way. To think too deeply on the challenge can cause hesitation, but once I get going, the elusive magic sparks anew.
You don't get many lies that come guilt-free, so consider this sort a true victory.
At least you found a system that gets you what you want! We can all cheer about that!
ReplyDeleteWoo hoo! And yes-- while I've seen advice against setting creative deadlines that you might fail to reach (or feeling you failed at keeping your word once announced), this is one of those that was win-win-- write or write then blog. I suppose if I was too stubborn to write, it would be neither but I'd cave sooner or later.
DeleteAh yes, keeping my word once announced is a huge stumbling block for me. I do it all the time with dieting and exercise. Thankfully, I've learned not to announce anything with regards to writing, because I only feel miserable when I don't stick to it.
DeleteExactly. I stopped posting about my health goals altogether because it wasn't realistic to how my body even works. I'd have great weeks and setbacks and it became damaging to my motivation to fall short. On occasion, I just have to admit I was too hasty with the plans and try not to jump the gun so much. It's too easy to get carried away when trying to make yourself accountable to your goals. So sometimes I just have to 'lie' or 'make excuses' but reinforce what I want moving forward.
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