Showing posts with label crochet. Show all posts
Showing posts with label crochet. Show all posts

Tuesday, April 25, 2023

Crochet Break: Size Matters

 Taking a break from the info seshes on women’s health to talk a little bit about crochet. Which, other than sleep and research, is how I spend most of my days until my surgery on Friday.

Lately, I started reflecting on the finer points of crochet like gauge, hook and yarn size. When you’re just starting out, these are things that tend to get jumped over and it’s true enough that they actually don’t matter for a great deal of projects… but are pretty integral on many others. I wouldn’t say that gauge is always important for fashion unless fit is a strict requirement. You typically don’t have to obsess about tension once experienced because it doesn’t matter as much as trusting the hook and the combination of hook size and yarn thickness or type.

Yarn type is a subject I could fill several posts with alone so I’m not covering it here; instead, I wanted to cover what I have really enjoyed doing as of lately; doing the same pattern with different hook and yarn sizes. Done correctly and with some knowledge of how and where to adjust the pattern (this is mostly in the number of rows, generally where there is a static repeat), you can really enjoy the results.

In this case, since I have most sizes of hook, it comes down to selecting different yarns. I used a thin bamboo silk thread (several ply like a yarn), ombré roving yarn (like Red Heart Unforgettable) with a milk cotton solid, and a chenille/velvet yarn I snagged on AliExpress (which is tough to work with for a beginner because plush yarn is deceptive in strength and thickness). These became my small, medium and large dragons. 

Picking the hook is actually fairly simple in this case; most yarns are best done with about 5 hook sizes. If the label itself has a recommendation, it’s that plus the two sizes above and below. So if the label says F hook, then D-H will likely be the optimal range. If it doesn’t say, sometimes you know by experience. Generally, you don’t want a hook that doesn’t fit the entire width of the yarn nor leave huge gaps in the work (unless that’s desired, but even then, a too-large hook will snag and work clumsily so you’re often better off making taller stitches or longer chains with a smaller hook). In this case, I used my smallest Clover Amour hook for the smallest yarn (B), an F for the medium range one, and a J for the largest, using the actual smallest, medium, and largest hook in the set. I did start with an L hook for the largest  but I could tell right away it was way too happy for this yarn and just one size down wouldn’t be quite enough.

So, if you’ve gotten through the lingo and I haven’t lost you, enjoy the results of this little experiment. And hop over to Etsy and snag the dragon crochet pattern if you have to try it yourself.



Monday, December 26, 2022

Pixel Perfect Crochet: Gauge Matters

 I often stumble on the best solutions through much trial and error but, in the past, have foregone sharing it because… it’s obsessive, lost on my audience, pick your situation of fizzled-out attempts. However, over time, I’ve learned that people often light up because these little obsessions of mine are often information that doesn’t exist in totality and the three or four research topics I combined to create this unified, though niche, concept are often more in demand than I realize. Or like I love to counter ‘you’re never the only one’; act as if you’re looking for your fellow weirdlings!

To the point, I wanted to create pixel perfect crochet for my nephew’s next birthday gift. I’ve use sc with some success before but I’ve never bothered to use gauge, despite the fact the professionals abide by it for the legitimacy of their patterns. In my case up to now, I have always created patterns where the other elements or results are not skewed or ‘wrong’ without gauge. Even the pattern I’m working on that will feature the measurements I used for the structure will come with the instructions to work the stitch as it looks best for you, then run the easy calculations accordingly. The pattern would actually be needlessly complex if gauge was strict, considering I don’t know the exact measurements their cardboard structure will end up with but you can adjust your numbers accordingly. Math IS more complex for some, but for others, strict gauge is the tougher sell. In order to balance the skill level I’m proposing I want the user to have the freedom to crochet comfortably; simple math gives them much more freedom to successfully cover their structure.

I use this example because it’s important to express that, despite my knowledge of gauge, it hasn’t been an important component. When I wish to achieve ‘perfection’, it does not mean you use every tool in the box. It means you carefully decide the simplicity/complexity of the task by selecting the tools you believe best accomplish the job. Some will insist I can take shortcuts, others will accuse me of oversimplifying and needing more info. In every case, I have two questions: what do you think you need to understand it and after I explain it, which part could be added to the pattern to clarify without adding more confusing complexity? Annnnd I sidetracked a bit, but I wandered a bit because gauge is one of those things I have been pestered about but am willing to provide why it wasn’t necessary to achieve a successful finished project. Also to reiterate, I am very aware of it and do ask from the onboarding if it is a tool I need.

Pixel perfect crochet stitches is one that need it without exception and I’ll show and tell the way though this. To start the gauge standards are 4x4” and this was the aim throughout.

If you wish for a TL;DR, skip ahead to the Pixel Perfect Swatch subheading and I’ll include one of the special notes necessary there as well.

The Journey

To start off, I used the standard H (5.0 mm) crochet hook and 4 Medium yarn. Ch 16, single 15, ch 1, turn. Proper gauge means you can gently flatten it against the ruler without stretch to reach the 4” mark. A couple stitches short by eye so I unraveled and added two chains to reach 18. So sc count was 17, and once established, easily rested in the gauge.

Though we were good to go but the goal is to make stitch height SQUARE so that my row and column counts would be equal. This means after 17 rows, I should make the perfect square…


Unfortunately after reaching row 17, the tight but easy tension of a standard sc just seemed to fall about 3 rows short. Pixel perfect it was not.

Slightly taller, maybe more texture? I knew hdc was the next best best for a taller stitch so the start was the same: H hook, 18 ch, 17 sc. but alas…


From a glance you can see more height and more texture which should’ve clued me in; too much height and I wasn’t fond of the ‘banded look’ which was not a feature of old school gaming so much as a shitty CRT/RF (ch3/4) adapter reality of the 80s. The goal is an artistic take on a beloved game and it’s not nostalgic or likely even that interesting for my nephew like it might be for someone my age so, next.

I found a stitch referred to as single crochet cross stitch because of the way it looks in rounds; like an X. However it would not visually work for turned work but I was curious. Same parameters as before but this stitch (which I personally called power move single crochet or PMS stitch. Heh.) involves what she called ‘yarn under instead of over’ but to me looked more like giving the power move to the hook and was easier remembered as a hook OVER step. But alas, row 17 got me a little more height but was still falling short of that ideal square.

Getting there but no. It was a little extra work for a look that most people wouldn’t even see that slight difference in. But I had other ideas based off of these swatches…

Finally, I decided to switch to an E (3.5 mm) hook and added only one extra chain to reach the 4” mark. Mental math told me I was about to gain just a smidge more height if I was guessing correctly as well as an additional row. (18 sc so 18 rows to reach the goal of a square stitch).

Crocheting too loose would relax the horizontal measurement and I’d lose the advantage of the tighter loops of a smaller hook so this is where I aimed for height and tension. Not the best pic, but the idea was to ‘trust the hook’, keep the yarn over snug but slack just enough to make the hook rest parallel to the top of the previous stitch (just over the ch 1 starting the row), twist hook and pull through. Added height without loosening the width…

Note that I held below the working stitch to keep it taut and not raising with the taut but slackened loops. The creation of a controlled gap and controlled tension in a vertical maneuver is often a technique that advanced crocheters use for those long triple and longer stitches and is giving me just the slightest height without risking a slight widening. As a crochet anatomy tip, this is something that is maintained no matter how you stretch the finished work; keep your base entry tight and your towering chains will not limp out later. This also applies to strengthening the peaks; finish with tight chains or create a strong single crochet foundation for more rows to come.

And now the finale. I was devastated to see that my 18th row landed me at 3.75”. However, I wasn’t defeated; I went ahead and remastered the horizontal: 3.75”! So in trying not to widen it and effectively heightening the stitches, I actually managed to tighten the width and accomplish then perfect square. I  made sure the swatch was still relaxed, measured again to confirm and then gently stretch tested to confirm both directions had the same give and would not contort later.

Success, at last!



I already know; pics or it didn’t happen. I would do a video if I didn’t have my cat sleeping on my lap but it’s the real deal so… onto the TL;DR…

Pixel Perfect Swatch

The quick and easy is this: E (3.5 mm) hook, controlled snug tension (with listed exception) ch 19, sc 18, ch 1, turn. Exception; after base entry, y/o, pull through, hold at base to draw up slack so hook is rest above starting chain or previous stitch, parallel, yarn over and pull straight along the parallel.


This makes all the difference if you skipped ahead of the why. Finishing gauge will not be the 4x4” but 3.75x3.75”, but this means the stitches are indeed square and ‘pixel perfect’.

Conclusion

Ew. I just felt like I was writing a college paper again. But this lets the vultures pick the meat and wander off again while I add a few more notes and thoughts. This can likely be done with different hooks, yarn and stitches. Absolutely experiment and even share with your fellow weirdlings, scraping through the wasteland of internet misinformation to unearth some gems. In my case, I wanted this gauge to work for a cushion design so small stitches with fewer holes and limited stretch were my personal goal. This will give large projects a higher ‘resolution’ for your goal yet be small enough to get recognizable visual pixels in smaller projects. Want to go mini? Bust out the thin steel hooks and crochet thread. Jumbo aspirations? Grab those hilarious S and larger hooks and super jumbo blanket yarns and get to it! I’d love to add to the pixel perfect search over time but this will be a good medium for all ages. Some of our veterans just can’t see or hold those itty-bitty wonders or fatigue wrestling the anaconda-like proportions of the other end. 

Remember; do your test swatch. There are subtleties that must be experienced and it will develop the muscle memory to be consistent through the project. Get your rows and columns at the same number and at the same measurements and you can contribute to the search for great crochet pixel art!

Monday, January 20, 2020

More Doing, Less Not Doing

I know when people read my blogs, they'd rather SEE what I'm up to than just hear me talk about it. So let's start with my finished Simon Belmont!
Simon, Simon, bo Simon, fa-nana-nana-fo Fimon, mi my mo Mimon...



YAY!

I don't yet have a picture of Rienna's shoulder guards just yet, but I sculpted those this morning just to see how they turn out. I used a white air-dry modeling clay I found on Amazon for this 'trial'--which they are always 'trials' until they turn out well enough to be 'final'-- so after I give that time to dry, I'll sand it, possibly glue things that fall off (hopefully not) and then paint it to see how it goes. It's my hope that this one will work out since figuring out oven bake will be a bit of a pain. I can't exactly bake my doll so I'd probably have to attempt using foil to hold the shape... Eh, so GO, AIR-DRY! YOU CAN DO EET!

I'm about to jump over to writing for a bit, but I hopped over here to share some progress at least. You should probably go back to something else too. Even if it's just napping. Take care of yourselves, peeps!

Sunday, January 19, 2020

Finishing Things

Three day weekend, woot, woot!

I had to start off by saying that. Hella busy week at the restaurant so I am more than happy for a break. And some good news! I got this blanket done:
TA-DAAAAA!
As well as receiving my latest doll in the mail.

The tan lady on the right
She's actually the last one I plan on getting for a while until I actually finish up the others. I still have to learn to use my airbrush machine and plan for some sculpting for some of the other parts of projects-- a Nendoroid's ears and feet, Rienna's armor, whatever else. I feel like I'm mentally lazy with that list right now. I have several different types of clay though that are meant for quite a few projects and I'm not entirely sure how far I was going with that anyway.

In any case, my new doll, I actually bought the face-up, clothes and wig for so that's not a custom job. I really just wanted a finished doll to gawk at and maybe inspire me to finish the others. Especially since my two boys would be the easiest to go ahead and finish. It's the girls that will take me a while.

'Specially with Rienna always under construction...


I'm also crocheting a Simon Belmont for my friend Joe. Crocheting is one of those nice in-betweeners these days while I sort out the rest.
Beefy baby-man in progress
And yes, writing was done. The only thing I'm neglecting these days is drawing, but I'll get back to that in my own time. The writing is going well enough... even though I feel like I'm being kind of mentally lazy with that too. It's not really a cardinal sin for a first draft to be kinda lazy though. I'll be able to dress it up in edits as long as I can make it at least partially coherent.

So tomorrow, more crochet and whatever else. You know me by now; enjoying the random. Letting the impulses lead since my muse is an asshole mostly. I'll see if she feels like playing tomorrow. Or not. I can manage.

When the weather is nice again, I'm hoping my dolls will be ready for some photo shoots. So I guess I better get cracking on them before spring springs up! But to be honest, this cold weather is ripe for writing. And drawing, if I feel like it.

Seriously, I sound like the world's worst procrastinator, but we all know that's... not really like me at all. I don't have clear intent for plans in the first place.

And that's probably the secret to happiness. Eschew expectation, comparison, and if you have nothing planned, you can't procrastinate! Sounds good to me.

All in all, I have to say I do love finishing things. It's not often that I get to say that because I rarely choose small projects. Everything has small steps and progress, but sometimes I like to save things for a big reveal. Other times, I just have to show anything at all. If only because I love to share.

Sunday, September 15, 2019

Glue, Yarn, and Madness

Crafting!

Fucking crafting...

I love it, all trials be damned, because successes are as big as the obstacles. Today, I did exactly what I hoped to do.

Sort of.

I started by making a wig cap for the new 1/4 girl I don't really have plans for yet. No sweat, just the usual glue and power mesh.

Then came Rienna's wig.

I love/hate it. Insofar, I've yet to find a glue that doesn't piss me off for wefting but sewing wouldn't exactly be easy either. With the tacky glue, ugh, it just never wants to hold right away so I've taken to just squirting a bunch of glue down, waiting about a half hour for it to firm a bit then sticking the hair on, just so I'm not playing weft chicken as they try to slither away from the wet glue. E6000 was not better. I've yet to figure out how to keep that bitch from oozing away when not in use. I managed, over the course of the day, to get the wefts on until the hair's off-center part so I'm leaving it to dry and I'll tackle it again tomorrow after work.

Crochet... What. The hell. Did I do. With the rest of the polyfill? I'll have to buy some more anyway, but I once again hid it from myself so I've yet to finish the cupcake. So on to the Ezio plushie. Wonderful world of flying by the seat of my pants. Masochist... I crocheted eyelash yarn into a crocheted head to make facial hair. Looks fantastic, total pain in the ass. Then I started sculpting the neck, body and an arm. Again, looking great, but yarn sculpting is one of those things where you kind of hold your breath and hope you don't fuck up. I haven't, so far, and I can undo mistakes, but that doesn't make it less precarious.

So yes, productive day, and hoping for more of those this week. Writing? Drawing? Who knows? I rather like this thing I do where I'm just working on what I'm in the mood for. And there's always something. ADHD is a mental playground. Mixed with talent, it's a whole carnival. Or circus. Either way, it's a wild ride full of imagination, anxiety and victory. I'll run with it.

Craft Mojo

It would be amazing if craft mojo was something I could summon on command. Artists, writers, creatives in general, all face a sort of on-demand attitude from people who... Well, aren't creatives. Okay, we're ALL kind of creatives but there are certain types of creativity that are inevitably wishy-washy. Writing nonfiction is about gathering facts while writing fiction requires tapping into a fickle world that sometimes isn't bridging the gap into something translatable. Web design is using a visual space while sculpting is about manipulating a physical space, and depending on whether you're using a source or pre made assets, there lies the difference between organizing or creating original content from imagination. Imagination isn't really a wholly logical space that can be harnessed. Nor should it. Part of the thrill is the slippery, wild chase to catch it.

Inevitably, what is drawn from imagination sometimes get jumbled for me. It doesn't dry up or burn out, it just comes gushing like a waterfall and I'm standing at the bottom with a goldfish net. Often, I play with a lot of snippets before I expand all at once, able to start producing with insane efficiency.

Which is why giving advice has always felt tenuous, or like I was giving recipes with no way to list the ingredients. I've got my craft mojo, so I feel like I want to describe it but I can't. It just means over the past week, my goldfish net traded up. I'm probably catching mid-sized sharks but that's a good sign. The burgeoning ambition was simply a sign I'd been in the throes of mania. It really wasn't that good for me in the long term.

In any case, I started crocheting a cupcake for my friend's daughter's birthday and an Ezio plushie for my nephew. Yesterday it was a small yellow flower shaped dress for a small doll. Tomorrow...

Well, I can tell you what I'd like it to be. I'd love to work up a swimsuit and wig for my doll project, keep working on the crochet I started. I'm not in the headspace for writing. Right now, that part is a stream, frozen on the surface, rushing beneath. Ideally, the ice will crackle and slough away in time, but I'm not looking for it to be the rushing river. 

That place was too much an obsession, too much a diversion to pull me from pain. When I first started to slam through writing, it was a way to salve the grief of too much loss piling up. Once I healed those wounds, the writing itself had masked too many bad habits picked up. My health started another decline and I had to face that there are aspects of myself I'm blind to and I needed help to get back on track.

Don't look for a secret to creative mojo. Just understand there may be some intuitive signal that there is something else needing attention. You will find you are more productive over time, more thoughtful with what you produce, if you listen to those urges that go ignored. Now, I'm not talking some serial killer urge. Lock that way the fuck up. But if you've got some voice saying you suck at self-care, maybe take a breath and listen a little more closely.

Wednesday, June 5, 2019

Power Hours

My waitressing job isn't tough. It's even pretty fulfilling and good for my social development. It's also a compressed three hour (sometimes a little longer) shift, which is so much better than running around or standing for an 8-hour shift. On a slow day, I still pull $50.

But damn, it drains physically like I ran a marathon. Not quite tired enough to nap, but not really awake enough to do more than vegetate with Netflix or Hulu. At best, I might sit up to scribble down notes on what I'd like to do when I have more energy.

Well, last night, I printed off and added borders to another 100 business cards. That took about two and a half hours so it wasn't too time-consuming. It was pretty much the slow wait of them printing then folding and perforating, followed by sorting border colors, rolling on tape, cutting excess, rinse repeat. I like the sort of mindlessness of it because it gives me room to daydream or just quiet my thoughts, sort of meditative.

Tomorrow, I'm going to peruse website layouts, pick those out, pick HTML colors (they'll match my business cards; a mix of cream, warm browns, and a dusty purple accent), organize photos, then let Joe do his magic. I was only putting that off until I could test print the business cards, make color adjustments, then decide how the site colors would play into that.

Writing might happen, but really, I'm anxious to finish Totem. Writing is something more natural to step away from but art seems to have a window for whether it will be finished or I'll get distracted by a shinier visual desire.

I'll be ordering a doll base soon, with the hopes of customizing her to look like one of my female characters. It's difficult to find the right male doll parts. They tend to be generic, boyish (rather than masculine adult), and limited, which is why it's much more tempting to customize a female. Now, Iplehouse, one of my absolute favorite BJD manufacturers, sells the most amazing male forms, but I'm not quite in a place where I could display, protect or maintain such expensive dolls so that option is not a short-term goal. If I had the room for a big display cabinet and even more to spend on the base bodies, let alone outfitting them, I'd have two foot tall versions of at least a few of my characters, but for now, I can dream. It's a much higher priority to juggle inexpensive hobbies with my career ambitions than it is to blow every cent on showstopper pieces.

Of course, there's crochet too. I'm still waiting on a few yarn colors to come in the mail so that's on hold until then too. I tend to buy inexpensive but ridiculously soft milk cotton yarn from overseas. Unless I can hit a yarn sale locally, most US companies charge more for less impressive yarn. As much as I love to support local businesses, especially since I'm leery of supporting countries where labor laws are inhumane, yarn is one of those supplies that goes fast and takes a lot for anything but small projects, so it's just as distasteful to spend more for less quality and yardage. Yarn production isn't one of those things that even needs heavy manual labor to produce, just someone to inspect and fix the machines that spin, color and label yarn.

Time to stare at some show I'm only half watching for now. Much to choose from but I have a good idea where to focus my priorities once I've rested.

Monday, April 29, 2019

Kind of an Update

I usually do waitressing on Thursdays every week, but lately (like today), I've been taking Mondays for my cousin instead. Which I am all too happy to do, actually, because the difference has been about $15-25 higher in tips. So once again, in an effort to avoid a bedtime-ruining nap, I'm back to blogging.

So what's new? I'm feeling up to some amigurumi this summer, so I went yarn shopping for some colors I don't have. For those who don't know, amigurumi is the term for dolls/plushies/etc. knitted or crocheted. They often resemble popular characters. I won't be using patterns. I'm pretty versed in fiber sculpting. I'll be doing an older Ezio from Assassin's Creed for my nephew Dameon (we both agree his aging goateed blue outfitted form is the coolest) and a Gloomper from Don't Starve (another video game) for Marcus. I ordered it cheap from AliExpress so it might not even come for another month, but I'm making a list of other possibilities. I've had a lot of request for dragons, mermaids and other fantasy themed ones, so those are possible. I'm trying to keep most of them in the 6-12" range so they'll be fairly quick projects to squeeze in between drawing and writing.

A recent dragon neckwarmer I did; not amigurumi
Which is the next decision. I started doing a design that might be on my business card. I've designed business cards in the past but they've always felt conformist and sterile to what I'm actually about. So this time around, I'm drawing one of my bad ass, scantily clad ladies that will be emerging from the pages of a book. What prompted me to do this now is that I met a man where I work, Joe Styer, who saw my books and was interested in me doing some fantasy art for a friend of his. In exchange, he's using his professional expertise to help me build a professional website. So I decided that my business card should follow the colors of the site and wanted to get that going to match those up.

Just a peek at the draft...
Again, this is why I say it is so important not to sit on your work for too long. Absolutely edit it thoroughly and get it in the right place, but keep in mind that it becomes a portfolio. You probably think people are going to look at it as the best you're capable of, but the people you actually want to work with will more often recognize it as a part of your potential. Get something out there and prepare to talk about it honestly.

As for writing, I poked at what I'm currently thinking of as literary fiction. Not any impressive word count but I can tell you that, so far, it's about a young girl whose mother seems like a caring extrovert, but is actually a mentally ill woman who mostly takes it out on her. She has a younger brother who is still too young to notice anything and her mom suddenly springs a rather huge bomb on her daughter: she married her boyfriend and the man has a teenage son and fraternal twins, a boy and girl, she hasn't even met and they're moving into his house. She is forced to move into their home and a stuffy new prep school, all under the thumb of her unstable mother. Not really sure the aim of this one. Short story? Novel? Romance? Thriller? I'm not yet sure, but drafts don't necessarily contain those elements in stone so I'm going to let it grow organically.

I'll either work on that one, my UnNamed spin-off, or poke at Piscine, my sci-fi mystery. UnHeard isn't quite ready for progression yet and I'm okay with that. If don't pick it up before NaNo this year, it will once again be my NaNo project. Since I've been releasing the books in that series for my mom's birthday each year, that's always a good place to crunch the drafts and crack down on editing after anyway.

As for its partially finished cover, that's on the drawing list and is done as quick or sluggish as I care to make it. Likely followed by going ahead and designing the fourth while the momentum is up. I've had Eredin's face in my mind for quite a while, so it'll be exciting to get that done regardless.

And now I'm out. Bedtime is here. Thanks for killing time with me!

Friday, December 21, 2018

Christmas Comes

Things crocheted yet another weekend of working awaits. Yet as the work is done, the dream only strengthens. I feel my worlds beckon and it's almost time to absorb myself in those places they offer once more.

I think fondly of my flagship series. I wonder what it can become once I find it a wider audience. It's been the crux of a massive change in my life. Like becoming a college graduate, becoming a published author is something I carry with me always. It's one of those titles I kind of want to blurt out every time I meet someone. I had the courage to turn a long time dream into a medium I could share. I was able to become more than just another person who is writing a book. Not that I'm not always writing a book-- even when I finish one, there are five more in various stages of completion.

Right now, I'm anxious to let everyone see the gifts I made them. Crocheting is tough on hands, time and delicate fingers, not to mention posture. Yet the time I put into it makes me proud to suffer and sacrifice to make these things, to make people happy through what makes me happy.

The creation process is just as much frustration as it is joy. I can't tell you exactly what makes self abuse through creation so irresistible but I'm always looking a few steps ahead, anxious to make it something tangible. There are these tiny moments in there where I perfectly understand the insane magnetism and it must be those moments that make the hundreds of hours worth it. Yet when people use words to say they can't do what I do, I still don't quite understand why they consider it focused or disciplined or that they're too restless. Creation is chaos, turbulence, always transforming. I'd understand it more if they said that taming it is like trying to scoop dry sand with a fishnet. You can eventually pile it up with what you've got, but you'd get there quicker if you think of what needs to happen to make it work better. Wet the sand and the castles fall into place (although honey or glue are a few tricks of the trade too).

Anyways, look forward to a relaxing Christmas and then the return to writing and editing. Castles to build, after all!

Saturday, December 15, 2018

'Tis the Season

I'm not really the sort of person that gets excited about holidays. That being said, I'm not the begrudging sort that will ever mumble things about them being commercialized, expensive, depressing, 'just another day' etc. either. I've had a few crappy holidays here and there, but I've never gotten to the point where I've ever felt like shaming people for enjoying them.

I do enjoy watching people open gifts I've gotten/made them. I love how excited kids get. Love doing the crafts. Ehhh, not a fan of Christmas music (I was a retail worker too long to get that excited about the month long 8-hour a day piping of the same 30 songs over and over).

What I enjoy now is the time I'm taking off writing and drawing to make Christmas presents. Of course, I'm daydreaming about going back to it and I still slip over to blog or edit a chapter here and there, doodle on the edge of a page--there really isn't a 'break' from that part of life, any more than I can avoid sleep when I really want to work.

There is also the daily workout of keeping an eye out for the packages coming and the possibility of porch pirates, the inevitable Grinches of the season. Fuck those guys in the ass with razor-sharp candy canes. Yet I'm on those notifications and the sound of every vehicle that comes down the street and, hey, it's only for the next week, so I got this.

No Christmas tree this year. Not a sacrifice, though, since having two rambunctious kittens instead is always better. We do have decorations up on shelves they can't get to. We've been doing Christmas crafts and chocolate advent calendars and hot chocolate, so it's plenty festive. Enjoyable, to say the least.

While I'm not the sort to find some inner pool of excitement for holidays, I find that I often enjoy them based on the moods of people around me. When the kids are excited and the sentiment is genuine, I definitely get into it more. The people who are genuinely grateful for the things I make them continuously end up on my list. Hats are usually the quickest make but we're still looking at AT LEAST 4-6 hours of my time on simple hats, with any kind of off-pattern make taking several days. There has to at least be an excited thank-you in the return or it's deflating to have spent the precious time in making it.

On that note, this is why I don't bother with the business side of it anymore. On occasion, I have a couple of regulars that are happy to pay me fair wages for that effort. On occasion, I even gift to them, free of charge, as a thank-you for supporting me as an artist. However, for most people, I do write patterns and encourage them to learn how to make them for themselves. I definitely do not tolerate being told I'm too expensive. Hop on over to Etsy and see where I'm getting my prices. Considering I usually run my estimates right in the middle of the ranges, my quotes were always generous. Why? Because I'm an expert. No, really. I can admit there are some Russian ladies that free-form most of us to shame, but my custom work is original and a work of art so I have always earned the right to charge for materials, time and labor.

Unfortunately, it is also mostly a hobby now. While my art and writing are always competing for my professional attention, crochet isn't something that takes a top spot in competing with that time. I still have yet to figure out how to squeeze in marketing, but make no mistake, I do seriously monetize my work because I take pride in it. I won't undercut or water down a market for a quick buck so I always deeply consider market value in my decisions.

Well, I didn't mean to stray in that direction, but you know, 'tis the season. All four of them. Because you have to know that the creative brain, while also focused, is a ride that jumps the tracks and flies where it will. I don't monetize my blog so you're definitely always going to get what you pay for.

And then some, because I'm a giver.

Wednesday, December 12, 2018

Five Days of Not Writing

Although this is one of my favorite times of the year to hunker down and get to writing, today marks five days of not doing that. No editing either.

I'm not worried.

It's also the time of year I up and decided to do some weekend work at the local theme park and crochet a bunch of last minute gifts. My head is in writing still, but the priorities temporarily shifted.

I enjoy doing concessions. I don't do any of the business end, just help with food prep, cleaning and gofering. It's a pretty nice gig that pays very well and the people are a joy to work with. This will also help me promote myself as a writer and work towards better equipment and getting a booth for ComicCon.

Just like online college set up an opportunity to focus better on my skills, this job service lets me shop for great jobs that fit my personality and lifestyle. It's a job model that should be available everywhere, frankly. It's like Uber for job seekers and both employers and employees can find ideal situations and meaningful connections this way.

Back to the crochet, but I'll be inspiring a whole surge of writing through these experiences so all for the better!

Thursday, August 23, 2018

The Struggle

Old Me might have panicked immediately when my laptop charger died. New Me was disappointed but determined. I'll be without a laptop for a while but I planned my dedication to writing and being broke for just this sort of inevitability. Solution? Bluetooth Apple keyboard + iPad mini and Word app= temporary writing get-up. It does mean UnSung will slow down, but I'm in a planning phase with it anyway. 

I figured it's time to set down some more work on the Dreampunk Chronicles, the YA Steampunk Fantasy involving two young women desperate to find the reason behind their unique ability to travel between worlds, one of my Word-friendly files. 

It'll take some time to save for a new charger (and fish food and a printer cable). Kind of a stretch but if anyone wants to purchase anything I've crocheted, drop me an email and I can link you with pics of what I have for sale and we can negotiate a price (shipping alone is $5-7 through USPS these days, so keep that in mind).

Either way, there's always gift card surveys! And I always have workarounds and other projects. I'm still not excited about the prospect of aggressive book marketing when I have so much I want to finish first. When I'm not writing, I still like poking at concept sketches for Rock My World. It's a setback, not a roadblock.

It's been a sort of sluggish week though. The passing of a girl I grew up with, one of my earliest friends, has left me glum. I didn't know her very well over the years, mostly just kept connected through social media, but she was a great person and the world has too few. I'm not immobile, but then I'm no stranger to grief and am versed in mobility being crucial to healing.

I'm hoping to pull together some more upbeat posts. Sometimes a contrast to a mood is the medicine you need.

Saturday, July 14, 2018

Get Rid of the Entitlement: Your Unique Opportunity for Growth

As I've said before, crocheting happens to be something I excel at, but it was a hard won path that took years of patient dedication, like any craft. Sometimes, there are points where crafts cross over with philosophies that boost another of your outlets.

Comments I see time and again in crochet groups. "How do I make this? There's no pattern!" It is then followed by more increasingly entitled lamenting "I found a pattern in Russian. Can I have it in English?" "I've only found a diagram and can't read that kind of pattern?" "Ugh, I hate when there's no pattern, but I REALLY want to make it!"

People tend to get passionate only as far as the comments go, but most of them give up when the conditions aren't completely ideal. There's rarely any spirited chirps of 'well, guess it's a good time to learn Russian/read diagrams' or 'maybe I could look at the stitches and attempt to make it from the picture!' but damn it, there should be! Age or patience or sheer laziness and entitlement shouldn't ever be an excuse to cut yourself off from attempting a new learning experience.

And yes, this absolutely applies to writing.

I get it. One thing crochet has over writing is that the mistakes can often become a part of the design, unknown to all but the proficient crafter themselves and even another master would have difficult spotting it without being told. However, writing also has an edge over crochet in that the mistakes are easier to correct, that a story doesn't have to be unraveled to be fixed. However, it does require you to shed entitlement, to welcome humility in the process and take the bad with the good (and realize bad and good are subjective).

See the failings of a perfect scenario as your place to make it better. Take the time to write the non-existent pattern and you can turn around and charge for that coveted design. Take the time to write that non-existent book! Or shrink it down-- novella, short story, poem. A lot of short pieces grow with inspiration into something much bigger than you imagined. Even a proficient crafter can float as run-of-the-mill, always passing up challenges beyond the comfort level for any number of excuses.

We're modern creatures, often spoiled by its conveniences, so many of us resorting to whining, looking for the bleeding hearts to do the hard work for us. It's one of the reasons I started plugging up the holes on my own bleeding heart tendencies. There's only so much you can do, only so much you can let yourself be sidetracked by the monumental amount of pleas begging you to their cause. I can't say I never cave. Sometimes I'll translate patterns or make my own when I see the whining, not because of some genuine urge to please the masses, but because the challenge DOES appeal to me and I DO see the sense in appealing to a profitable demand. Yet sometimes I withhold that urge, wondering how desperate or passionate that 'need' will be, whether it will encourage just one of those entitled commenters to take matters into their own hands.

It's okay to be an enabler sometimes, to be selfless in your work or selfish too. I don't push back and try to shame those commenters because who really cares about the opinion of some internet stranger? It's not going to reduce their number and could even do quite the opposite. I do want to see people reach their full potential, but coddling is NOT the same as nurturing. When someone feels the edges of confidence, you have to push them ahead of that sense of instant gratification, to let them know that it's just going to get scary sometimes. Ultimately, that's where the greatest sense of accomplishment always seems to reside. Not in who you can look to for help every time, but where you can go inside yourself to try and help yourself first.

No shame in looking for some help sometimes, but the temptation to treat it like a crutch is where people fall astray so much. Don't be 'too old' or 'too impatient' or have 'too many other easier options' to reach for goals that might require both some help or some scary alone time.

Think of it like learning a language. You can either trust the interpreter to speak for you or you can speak for yourself. Even the most well-meaning interpreter can fall short of what you mean to convey. There's a lot of benefit to shedding ignorance in your craft, even if it's just a little at a time. Can you spot a misspelled word? Can you proofread your own work? Can you shed more excuses and say exactly what you're trying to say? Sure, you can pay someone to do it and that's a great way to encourage people to develop such skills. But don't always shuck a learning experience to take the easy way out either. You might surprise yourself and spread that proficiency across the board.

I became a better artist over a 5-year dry spell with drawing. This doesn't mean you can piss away the importance of practice because, honestly, it was torture and the longer I went, the more I thought I'd lose it altogether. It doesn't quite work like that-- you do lose some things but some things are innate, locked into you. Writing was the same way. I can't say for certain it was confidence or 'the right time' but I do know that much had changed and I saw too much entitlement in myself with nothing MORE to back it up. Why can't people see what I've done and snatch me up? You'll notice that no matter how wonderful it feels to get a big response, people will just as quickly forget if you're not DOING, producing and working on something else. People will hesitate to invest in you if you tuck it all in after a victory. What makes writers like King so successful is he keeps popping another title in his library. It doesn't have to be solid gold-- people can hate it, but it keeps his name reappearing on those New Books lists before it ever fades out. Of course, there's no lack of talent and hard work in his case, but one thing that keeps creatives afloat is visibility. Stay relevant and it's not just your new work that flies off the shelves, it's the curiosity for the old work too.

I say this time and again, but you ultimately decide how far is far enough. But you're totally a dick if you're whining about something out of reach and have no intention of contributing towards getting it. "Oh, the pattern exists, but it's soooo expensive. Can I get it for free?"

Get out. Just... get out with that. It's just as nauseous when you're an 'idea person' wanting other people to write your damn book for you, but 'you'll pay them with royalties'. Or worse. Exposure. *shudders* If you want to gamble with your time and money to see your vision, fine and dandy. Don't undercut or undervalue the skills of others with entitlement. Entitlement never looks cute or even acceptable. Even if people are too polite to say it, they're disgusted with you.

Go ahead and pass it up if it's not that appealing to pursue. A parting shot is not a mic drop-- ride off into the sunset, quietly, and take your highest horse with you.

Thursday, June 28, 2018

Vanity Post!

Blog posting is largely a place I can go to take a break from my stories. When you spend 8+ hours a day writing, sometimes the last thing a writer wants to write about is writing.

Vanity posting seems like a fun diversion, so why not? I've done a post on the basic of crochet and if you dig around you can find some of my side projects floating around, but I'll throw some here and talk about them a little.

First up, a blanket I made for my Mommom (grandmother) for Christmas a few years back. Using a series of patterns and stitches, I designed this blanket especially for her. Seemed like the proper thing to do since she was the one that taught me basic crochet when I was 16.

 Ah, the dragon neckwarmers... Advanced amigurumi (crochet sculpting) 101. 6 of the maybe 10 I've made; very popular. I've had requests to do a tutorial video on the wings and snouts since I designed the wings myself and the snouts are the hardest part of the pattern for a lot of people. I'm not a vlog kind of person, but I may do it in the future.

 Yup, that's the slime from Dragon Quest, for those that were asking. This is actually made as a hat but holds up well even when it's not on a head. Another one I designed after making a Hershey kiss hat and the shape reminded me of this so I adjusted it.

 Dresses are one of the most time consuming. Even doll dresses take 3-6 weeks if you work on them at least 8 hours a day. Hell on your hands if you don't take breaks either. This is a 100% cotton beach cover-up.
 Another popular one, the Galactic Shawl, a Red Heart pattern. Noticing the stars in a night sky shapes, I used silver and black yarn to make the shapes really stand out.

 Again, for my gamer friends, yup, it's a Moogle! I used armature wire to create the little head bauble. Didn't use a pattern, but it would be easy to duplicate. I'd do the eyes and nose a bit differently too (stuffing the nose and bringing the eyes in closer, for one).

Eh, I have a ton of doll outfits I did, but no decent pics of all of them. I'll have to do a little photo shoot and come back to it...

Thanks for being my break between the wonderful world of editing! Not that I don't love revisiting my story, but this is the part that amounts to running through it with a chainsaw so it can get the anxiety going a bit.

Not that it's not terribly fun running around with a chainsaw, but this is the place where I make sure I'm not treating my stories like they're too precious for change. I'm not sure I was ever an overprotective sort of writer (I've thrown away ridiculous amounts of my old stories without thinking twice and from what I can remember, it's for the best). Until I wrote the first book of The Truth about Heroes trilogy, there were few things that even made it to halfway finished. I did have one story I had been calling Tiger Eye that got a decent roster of characters, a hand drawn map with a few locations, and a decent beginning, but every time I got stuck I'd throw in a new character and eventually it just became a story with a chain of characters that never came up again. I might salvage it-- it's a story I started when I was 15 so it would need a total makeover, but I still have the sketches in a green binder. I don't know if I'll be inspired to go back to it, but I left it as a possibility. Castles in the Sand, Purple Moon, and The Curse of Amanita were comics that filled a notebook or two; my friend Liz and I also did one called the Legend of Nibichi that I still have just the script for, but not the comic. I have Son of a Devil, but that one is probably the most recent too. Still remember them well, but they were among the many that were lost to time. If I had a time machine, I'd go back and save all of my drawing notebooks from thieves and forgetfulness.

So much for not talking about writing, but there are few things more tempting than going back to what you love even when it frustrates you. Or maybe especially when it frustrates you, because the tug-of-war is sometimes the right kind of drama for the task. It still stings a little that I lost so much of the work I did in the past, not because I would publish them even if I had them, but I wouldn't mind redrawing and reworking them from more than my spotty memory. It still might be fun to go back to a lot of them, but I'm almost moving forward with new ideas and that feels better than nostalgia right now. The ideas just keep coming and I'm going to keep encouraging myself in that direction.

Monday, April 2, 2018

Interest Piece: The Basics of Crochet

While my blog usually combines personal anecdotes with writing tips, I do like to mix things up and enhance my abilities with the occasional writing challenge. I am not exactly a master crocheter, at least not in terms of fame, pure dedication, YouTube, etc. but I am adept enough to follow any skill level of pattern and even make my own. I'd love to do a video tutorial on how to do a dragon neck warmer pattern someday, but I won't jump too far ahead right now.

First off, I'm going to assume you know nothing about crochet to start. As far as supplies goes, it's more complex than you might think. Yarn comes in many different blends, types, lengths, weights and varieties. Blends can include acrylic, animal hair/fur, bamboo, silk, cotton, even paper. Aside from your yarn selection, you can also choose to use finer threads for more delicate work. Thin threads are much more durable that thin yarns. As far as lengths go, you can buy them in tiny bonbons or giant cakes and you'll run into different winding methods as well like hanks, balls, skeins, cones, etc. These all give you an indication of how you will need to work with them to unwind them. Skeins are the most popular since most let you neatly pull the center thread, keeping it compact while you work with it. A yarn's weight is actually another name for its thickness. A 1 is the thinnest, while 7 or even 8 is nearly a rope. The standard weight in most projects usually falls between 3-4, with 5-6 being bulky or super bulky. I won't bother with the exact names here because this isn't universal (much like the US is the only country that even calls it yarn, since most countries favor calling all yarn 'wool' whether it has any wool in the blend or not). With regard to variety, you'll run into some funky types like boucle, balloon, tufted, eyelash and so on. These are designer types and generally pretty difficult for beginners to work with.

A little history before I lead into the next basic and that is that 'crochet' is a French term meaning 'to hook'. The 'hooks' were originally very organic-- the first crocheters used bent fingers to make the knots that make up the craft. Nowadays, we have quite the selection, ranging from wood, plastic, bamboo, polymer clay, aluminum and steel. As with many aspects of crochet, there are differences between US/UK standards in size. UK uses the diameter in millimeters where the US system often uses a letter and/or number rating (I think it runs from A to S. There might be a bigger gauge than S but I personally haven't worked with anything bigger than P). My personal collection uses both systems since I've bought them from many countries. It's important to note that delicate projects often use a different hook type, typically known as thread or steel hooks. These are thinner and have a different numbering system. If you don't have your hooks sorted, you may grab a crochet hook that says 3.0, which is bigger than the 3.0 of your steel hook set.

I'll go ahead and insert an optional section here concerning gauge. If you're a beginner, this might sound like gibberish, but the takeaway here is that you might not need it at all. Gauge is something you typically only need when making clothing. Most patterns meant to be made to a certain size will include a gauge chart which will let you know how many stitches should cover a certain length (usually per 3-4 inches). This will mean starting a swatch to make sure your yarn and tension (the term used for how tight or loose your stitches are) will fit the gauge or if you'll have to use less or more stitches to get the size you want. Once more, this is something more intermediate or advanced. To avoid running into sizing issues, stick to the recommended yarns. Most patterns have them. If you're going to stick to potholders or dolls or doilies, it's not something you often need. It's worth noting that a lot of novices make the mistake of ignoring it when making cardigans or shirts and end up with something way too big or small. You can get away without gauging hats in most cases, but keep this in mind if you're feeling brave enough to get out of basics.

The basics of usage are not something you'll want to try to figure out through words or even pictures. Scour through some videos on holds (what is the most comfortable way for you to hold the hook) and tension (how you thread the yarn through your fingers while working). This is a personal choice part of the craft and one thing a good teacher will explain before teaching a single stitch. From there, you will want to learn the slipknot. Again, no one way to do this. I personally like doing the pretzel method. You will do it at the start of every project without fail. Your next move will be chains and single crochets. For years, I never did more than single crochet and there are many projects that can be made from that alone.

I have to add here that I am once again using US terms. UK calls chains the single crochet and the single is a double for them. The rationale with the US system is that the chain is not a complete stitch where the single is the simplest secured stitch. The UK system's rationale is how many times you hook the yarn onto the hook (chains use one, the next uses two, etc.). I wouldn't worry too much about the why each time, just pay note of whether you're using a US/UK pattern. I learned US first so I think down single is a chain, double is single, triple is double. I've never done more than a triple treble which basically just looks like a chain. The basic stitches are single, double, half-double, treble, double treble, triple treble. Once you start looking for more difficult techniques, you'll run into types like crocodile, moss, butterfly, spike, puff, etc. that often resemble what they sound like. Many of them skip traditional looping steps you learn in basics or are simply a combination of basic steps (a standard crocodile is just a chain, three doubles, a chain, three doubles and a chain-- the effect resembles a reptile's scale. Be warned that you have to set up a lattice row of V-stitches to arrange them on. Please note this was the first stitch I learned outside of basics so it's not quite as confusing as it sounds-- it's just some new terms you pick up).

Beyond this point, you're branching out of basics. I was very experimental rather than procedural when it came to learning stitches, not minding the skill level. I ran into a lot of terms that meant nothing to me, but if you're learning via the internet, you can search terms very easily. Just by way of example, I've learned terms like third-loop crochet. Once you know the anatomy of your stitches, you'll get curious about what happens when you work around or behind a stitch and yes, they give vastly different visual results. The third-loop actually gives a very knit-like stitch that I love using on hats. Back and front post stitches are entirely used on the waffle stitch, a great stitch for thick warm hats and blankets. Cable stitching was once a knit-only technique but you can emulate the look by alternating long cross/X stitches in each rows. I've done basketweave and chevron stitches that use the same concept. The point here is to rouse some curiosity in your creative possibilities-- there are tons of stitches in crochet design! If you want to see some truly amazing freeform work, Russian crocheters are amazing at this.

As for patterns, you'll want to learn the acronyms/abbreviations and possibly charting. Russian patterns are notorious for using visual symbols rather than word directions. I find this more generous since it creates a universal language for sharing, but they are difficult to use for many crocheters since you have to think right to left then left to right for flipping rows. Make charting your intermediate curiosity since most patterns are written out. If ch, sc, hdc, dc, tc, dtc, ttc aren't second nature, that's okay. Almost every pattern regardless of skill level will have a key that explains ch = chain and so on. The key may be introducing new stitches and may or may not be included in the instructions. The hardest patterns will expect you to already know how to do most stitches and will only include stitch instructions if they aren't commonly used or if they themselves have invented the technique. If a pattern is lacking a skill level ranking or some details, you can often find comments where you downloaded it that will clarify or the pattern maker will have contact information otherwise. Be polite but don't worry about 'bothering' them. If they overlooked something, you are doing them a favor by spotting something they can update their pattern with that will help someone else. It will help them make more thorough patterns and better quality means better paid patterns.

As with all creative efforts, enjoy free patterns, but don't expect them. The most unique projects will often require you to pay and please, please, do not download pirated patterns to save a buck. Crochet designers will not stick to making innovative patterns if they can't afford to spend the time doing it. Not all of them are well-cared-for hoursewives or sitting on a cushy retirement incomes. Many are single women and men with other jobs because it's hard for a lucrative career to be had in creative jobs. People will haggle, undervalue you, expect you to treat it like a hobby or a passion and tell you that expecting to be paid is greedy or deceptive. I can't stress enough that people who do it as a 'hobby' are also often wealthy through marriage or lack of financial responsibilities and can afford to not take it seriously (just like the people you can't stand at your job who coast by doing little to nothing, they just don't value it the same way. Not less or more, exactly, but it's different). People who do things as a hobby also tend to feel they are novices. Here's another big one- they also tend to be doing it solely for themselves. They are making what they want, when they want, with little concern for the audience. 

Custom orders can be fun but they come with the added challenge of unknown supply costs and availability and unpredictable labor times. It also means they aren't making new innovative ideas and might be bored with making it for the 50th time. Yes, when making gifts, you often consider who you are making it for. But just like you selectively decide who takes priority on holidays, a friend of a friend is hardly someone who gets free or even discounted handmade gifts, let alone everyone else who wants to complain that you sold a $30 for $10 to a family member. Trying to haggle with a crafter's price is often how you'll end up being politely told to find someone else. A crafter is not a wholesaler. We have to evaluate what cost will make it worth the time and effort. It's not a matter of missing out on money. A skilled crafter has way more to consider than a lost sale. How many people would show up at their job if they were told you need to work for the next three weeks nonstop but they could only pay you the $50 it cost you in gas to get there? Yet that's exactly what some people's logic is towards artists. Yes, supplies ARE expensive (like gas) but if you're going to monopolize someone's time, there's no mutual satisfaction unless they are paid adequately for their time. When you contract someone for a freelance job, expect to pay at least minimum wage. Freelancers often have to charge you a 30% mark-up for taxes (because that is what the government forces freelancers to pay if you make more than $3000 in a year), supply costs, and if freelancing is their only job, they have to somehow manage upkeep expenses, insurance, as well. Wonder why freelancers are so 'greedy'? Well, because they have to make a living wage. You want convenience and quality, you get what you pay for. Go after corporate greed all you want, but don't take high prices out on freelancers.

In any case, there are your basics. Supplies/tools, things to learn, considerations for what you will do with the skill. I absolutely loathed turning crochet into a business and it didn't last. It's not something I ever want to do again. I can take the abuse when it comes to drawing and writing because it is what it is and I don't mind being accused of being selfish. I am and I'm not-- I might write what I want to read, but I also consider making it interesting for more than myself. Crochet is something I somehow take more personally so I don't take criticism on its worth as easily. I know what time I put into it and if I let any of it go, I don't bargain with it. I want to be sure that whoever I give it to will treat it well and treasure it. You can't mass produce crochet as you can with knitting. Every stitch has to be done by hand. I spent countless years learning it and it's the closest thing to mastering anything as I have come. Most of my creative pursuits make you aware that mastery isn't really possible. You can be really good at something, successful and considered an expert and still have things to learn. With crochet, there is absolutely nothing I have not been able to learn almost instantly. I have absolute confidence in it. All the more reason I don't tolerate underselling it. I will adjust any other skill I have to market it better because it's subjective. Crochet is a one-off piece and you like it or you don't, so you'll pay what it's worth or not at all. 

I could keep rambling. That's only the tip of the iceberg but my only general rant. I'd like to continue writing about the more technical aspects of crochet, but I may use a separate forum than my writing blog for that. There are many apps and sites that look for experts in special areas that might serve better. Blogs are hard to develop traffic for too. Much better to go to a site like Quora or Medium.

If you're here for the writer's blog, keep writing! For the crochet part, I'll update on this later.