Writing to My Past Self

 This is an exercise in reflection that we sometimes stumble on at some point in life and one I wanted to put out there. What would you say to your past self if you had the chance to save yourself regrets later? 

Dear Krista,

Throughout life, we’ll often be convinced that there are ways to do things that are best for everyone; ignoring them and going with your gut will be the thing that saves you.

I’m not writing to tell you my regrets or to change anything. No matter how tempting it is to think about going back to fix things, keep this in mind. I like who I am now. I’ve become a creative powerhouse and the friends I have are ones I never have to worry will hurt me. I overcame being sick and misdiagnosed and realized that changing anything could take away from what formed me. There was never any time wasted; not on being sick, or toxic people, or being unable to pursue things and just daydreaming of better things. 

One important thing I can give you is this and deep down you always knew; you can’t go back and change what you regret, but if you learn to love yourself, then all of it was just a journey to who you are. Don’t worry about not liking things about who you become and start preparing yourself for amazing others and even yourself.

Just don’t forget to listen to yourself. 

Love,

Future Krista

P.S. I’m still thinking about the line of dolls you came up with. That’s a good one…